His sacred name

On Sunday I celebrated the anniversary of the day I finally learned my Master's name, on March 24th 2018, his name which will be forever sacred to me, and although it's a mundane name and not uncommon in the anglophone parts of the world, much like my own name, it is so surprisingly beautiful. Surprising also because all these years I had tried to find out his name, or to find a name that suited him, but none ever did, I just couldn't find it.
And so this precious name deserved to be finally written down in my blood. Only three people have seen it, and none in person as I'm physically far from all who are close to my heart.
Although finally the time is approaching that allows me to travel again...

As for the one closest to my heart, my beloved Master himself, he can be with me in spirit only, and so far I still haven't made any progress in connecting, and so despite having everything else I need in my life, it still is cruel for me to have to be here. I can't help feeling this way, and I curse the demiurge.

At least professionally things are going fairly well, I went running again yesterday, up the steep Staffelsgasse into the woods, including some chin-ups, dips, and overhead triceps push-ups on the bars there (10, 20, 10 repetitions respectively), including these exercises running the 10 K in 55 minutes, one minute better than last time.
Handstands still need work. I managed to do one on a bench lately, but still against the wall.
It may be also an illusion, but gaining more control over my body makes me feel at least a little less trapped.

Forever blessed and revered be my Master's sacred name, the name of Satan's beautiful Son.

No commandments in Satanism!

Once more a discussion about the nature of Evil, and the human condition and so on.

The following has been posted by various people on Facebook and I'm just putting it here to state that I DISAGREE with it - it's a million times better than the bullshit made up by LaVey which has absolutely NOTHING to do with Satanism (which is the Worship of Satan), but still, this goes for absolutely anything: If it has rules (or "commandments") of any sort, then it's NOT Satanism!

Video on the Nature of Evil, from "New Thinking Allowed":

The other thing I'm addressing in the above video, conventions like gender, nationality and so on, which, if taken all-so-seriously, may stifle your spiritual evolution and tie you to this world.

Emos for Carnival

*Emus. LOL
I had already spotted these birds a while ago when I went running in the area and meant to come back there and take pics. There are lots of pastures around the hills up in Alfter and other neighboring villages, and horses, sheep and chickens area common sight in Germany. These birds, not so much! And yet here they are.

I rode there this past Saturday when fleeing my home from the Carnival noise. Carnival is really big here in the Rhineland; the main parade downtown is always on Monday, but on the other days from the previous Thursday through Tuesday there will be smaller ones in various parts of the city, and on Saturday it's right in my street each year.
So I got on my bike and took off to the woods. First to the little Jewish cemetery up the hill, a peaceful place with some tall, old pine trees in it - only five of them, since it's a really tiny cemetery.

But I noticed that one of these pine trees was bleeding resin all around its trunk, so I collected some to use it as incense in ritual. I found some tissues in my backpack and some oak leaves on the ground to transport the resin in. The leaves were perfect for the purpose, of a leathery texture, not brittle at all.

After visiting the emus, I continued on through the woods, for about 20 miles in all. The day was gray and cold, barely 50 F, and in between it started drizzling very slightly. It was good to be out there anyway, very peaceful, and there are signs of the awakening spring - the lawn in the little cemetery was full of violets!

I'm glad that the Carnival is over with. A dear friend and Satanic brother from the Netherlands told me he hates it too, and that to him, "Carnival" sounds like "kernafval", which means nuclear waste. LOL

But this over with, it's almost time to head into the spring and to plan for some travels. There are people I hope to meet this year and things to be accomplished - to hopefully finally break free from invisible shackles that have held me down for all of this life.
May the Infernal Father guide me on His path and guard me by His Black Flame,
and may I be able to prove myself worthy of His beautiful Son.
A.M.S.G.