Food for Thought on a Rainy Weekend

It's been a rainy, rainy day, I still managed to haul in some groceries in the morning and ever since noon it's been raining. My day off from workout. So what have I been doing? Beadwork... finished some items earlier which will be offered at Art of Dark, a Gothic store in Cologne, once I get to ride there once more and bring them along (for sure not a rainy day like this one as it's a 2 hour bike ride, & 2 hours back as well).

I'm currently reading Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming and have been looking through my dream journal to highlight some dream signs.
I also bought myself a sleep mask since nightfall comes very late this time of the year here at 51° North, and it's much better than laying a towel over my eyes as I had done so far.

(I think Bela Jaws is laughing at me though, and he thinks I can't see it with the mask but now we got photographic evidence, don't we?!.) LOL

I usually wake up at least once in the night anyway, so I can take the mask off then and still be woken by the dawn.

Some days ago I finished reading Journeys Out of the Body by Robert A. Monroe. It's quite fascinating but in the start also kind of weird to read, and not because of the experiences he relates in it. In fact, what is most bizarre to me is how in the start he introduces the subject of the book with the utmost caution.
It must be stated that this is an old book, first published in 1971, thereby far older than myself, and the story of his out-of-body travels, which happened to him accidentally in the start, began about 3 decades before I was even born, in 1958, so those were different times and I can't (and prefer not to) imagine how I might have ended up had I lived in those times! (Not exactly burnt at the stake anymore, but probably not a lot better than that!)
Well, I'm aware than a lot of people probably, tragically, still think in similar categories nowadays. Myself I've been an outcast pretty much from the start, and many would probably like to burn me at the stake if they could, or at least have me locked up in an institution or something - which in fact was done to me during my early teenage although I've never been mentally ill. So the fear of the possibility of mental illness, such as Monroe experienced it, has never been an issue to me, as I've already been through with all that. And I've always known for sure I could never ever want a "normal life", to be a part of human society, to work in a normal job and/or in the end to even become someone's wife and have my body abused to produce offspring - all these things were,and are, to me the most nightmarish idea in the universe (especially the part about mating and offspring)! So I've skipped the whole trying-to-fit-in, since it was never a viable option. Some people told me I was courageous but it simply never was a viable option, I don't feel I had any choice (other than suicide), and if it's not a choice it probably isn't courageous... whatever.

Anyway, I can say that I've found a way of life for myself and am happy with those choices I did take - but the journey goes on, of course, and I'm looking for answers and for ways to grow my awareness. To me, this life is not so much about being than it is about becoming. And so what puzzles me most about Monroe's introductory words in his book is how people will be afraid to change their views accordingly, with the evidence for vast worlds beyond this life - when once there will be undeniable evidence, that is,which everyone can only find for themselves - because it is an "uncomfortable and frightening" change.
Is it??
So I have arrived at this conundrum again that is utterly beyond my comprehension: What might be so uncomfortable and frightening about NOT simply ceasing to exist? How to possibly wish their ephemeral, enslaved existence is all there ever will be?!

Fortunately, trying to make sense of that mindset is not a thing I need to do. I can't even understand the desire to "fit in" and to have a "normal life". When I've always had the contrary desire, to break free!

Here's some food for thought I watched today. Some of the stuff this guy is talking about seems weird to me, like that part about aliens (I think that comes part 2, 3, or 4 - these ones I've watched so far),but as he mentions in one of the latter, you shouldn't throw out everything of it just because you disagree with part of it. Another thing I vehemently disagree with is whenever this love and compassion shit comes up - but I'm keeping an open mind and trying to learn and make myself my own picture of it all - one that a large, predatory fish can make sense of. So far I've had no personal experience of my (non-physical) Second Body, but it wouldn't surprise me in the least if it looked like this.