On the other hand, it may be cryptic to some, and actually it is sinister indeed - it's Satanic.
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| Ad Majorem Satanae Gloriam! |
It's not the only thing that is done though. I spent much time on the story I wrote, covering the previous three entries, and I have truly lived in it. It's been great to thereby give a more tangible shape to my idea of how my Master and I interact with each other. Yes, it was probably very predictable that he would turn out to be really Satan's son - I guess it was. Probably to anyone except myself - the version of myself in the story, that is. And yes, that's who he is, for real.
Symbols and signs, archetypes, reflections, synchronicities. I've struggled for years and years to understand; I could give a clear explanation now but it is not necessary to do so here, as it is for me to understand.
What I do brings about change - if done with true intent. This is why I write and do other things that I do.
This signed photograph I had ordered over two months ago, it was shipped from my home country and apparently got lost somehow, that's why it took this long, and I'm so grateful that it eventually arrived where it belongs. Not just because I paid over 80 € for this one (including shipping, that is), and it's worth every cent to me. It may have been coincidence that it first got lost - but I was told not to believe in such a thing. But true intent wins out against the forces that may have tried to cross us. It only emphasizes the meaning.
On Facebook there was another incident with another no-longer-my-friend who talked shit about witches. I got very furious about this. Insulting me is one thing, although not advisable either, but insulting my Master or my religion, it's a million times worse!
It made me think though. In the first place my post had been about the sorry state about the very washed-out definition of the term witch of nowadays - it's much the same shameful thing that happened to the term Satanism, having been hijacked by idiots who don't even believe in Satan.
It had been about some Facebook group allegedly dealing with witchcraft, but in the group description expressly declaring Satanism and black magic unwelcome. It made me wonder what it might still have to do with witches then. I can't stand this bullshit, and I really despise the LaVeyan bullshit. Things used to be much more clear and simple in my Master's day: A witch is usually a Satanist, and a Satanist is very obviously a worshiper of the Devil. And that's the way it ought to be in my book.
I pointed out in my FB post that I'm not even a witch myself when taken in a strict sense - no, I wouldn't usually think of myself as a witch. Except in the widest (but not watered-down) definition I've heard, which states that any person who has willfully turned against God is a witch. According to this definition I'd be most definitely a witch, of course - since I'm most definitely a Satanist.
But as it is, times have changed a lot, and some retarded asshole not taking witches seriously and talking childish bullshit would have been the least of concerns some centuries ago.
The buzzing of flies is all it is!
But it got me to resolve that I ought to do more meaningful things myself. Now that the season is warmer, it's good to be in the woods during the night again - even if a Saturday night wasn't exactly the best choice and I was forced to seek a place further out than originally planned due to noise pollution from the nearby village.
But I found a perfect spot for a little ritual. Had to cross some little "swamp" and therefore had to take off my shoes, but it felt as if it had been planned for me that way. I had with me a black candle and my hunting knife, and everything was perfect. Walking barefoot in the nocturnal woods was beautiful. It was the third full moon night and I needed my small flash light only very sparingly. I can move about in the darkness very well indeed, and a single candle flame is perfectly good for me to read by - I heard for some people that seems to be problematic.
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| At fleamarket with undercut shaven clean, on May 20th. |
In other news, I also bought an electric hair trimmer now for my undercut. It needs to be redone often; doing it with comb & scissors was a hassle; then I shaved it clean once with a disposable shaver but I didn't really care for the feeling - I felt like a cactus. LOL
So I bought the hair trimmer for 15 € and now I can keep it at the desired length - for now, for the summer. Come fall, I guess I'll need to grow it out a bit again due to the murderous German winter. It did feel really cold when shaven clean although it was May!
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| Then there were warmer days too. Is she not a hulking warrior?! A.M.S.G.! |
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